Depression is hard to fathom.

Note to readers: For the avoidance of any doubt, every character in this blog is Baggy! No Baggy was harmed in its writing, although some of them get pretty confused!

Depression: Back with a vengeance.
Anxiety: Rubbish.
Tears: Too many.
Laughs: Some.

Depression is a sneaky thing; just when it appears to have gone away it reappears from nowhere. Baggy should be used to this by now, after all, Hormonal Hannah feels totally okay one day, then wakes up the next with blackness all about her. The last week has been a challenge for Hannah, as Clever Bird truly thought that Hannah was free of the despair, she was totally caught out when Baggy woke up on Tuesday morning and felt that sinking desperation that meant that the darkness had returned.

Clever Bird always insists on trying to work out why! You would think by now Baggees, that she would accept that there is no obvious 'why?' There doesn't seem to be any rhyme or reason to it, and trying to get answers actually makes it worse somehow. But there it is, in all its horrible pressure: sadness, worry, fear, anxiousness, racing heart, a sick feeling, tiredness, despair, guilt, self-pity, more guilt, anger, lethargy, and nothingness - just loss. It's horrible, annoying and inexplicable, but it's real.

When Hannah is making Baggy feel like this, it's also become more noticeable to Clever Bird that Baggy feels physically ill as well. This week, her arthritis in her neck and knees has flared back up, she aches all over, has had headaches every day and is constantly exhausted. But worse than all of that, is the inability to motivate Baggy to do anything - a real Catch 22, as sitting about dwelling on the blackness is definitely counter productive. The gang have done their utmost to distract Hannah, but the truth is that when she's about, she is the strongest member of the gang and the rest of them struggle to get a look in.

Furry Mama has continued to take Pepper Pooch to the beach each day, and Hannah definitely perks up a little when she's there. Gloria Gardener has done some more tidying and rearranging as the garden continues to be cleared by a pro.

As ever, the pooch keeps her company - although his efforts are not always helpful!

Gloria has added her first few plants to the little pond, and Furry Mama added a ramp, so that any critters that accidentally fall in, should be able to get out again.

It is now 11.30 pm, way past Baggy's bedtime, especially as she has to be up at 7.00 to take Billy Bob Jalopy campervan to the garage, but Hannah had her so exhausted this afternoon, that she went for a lie down at 5.00 and didn't wake up until 8.00, so now she is all out of kilter....